maybe i wan to close tis down...

god man.. so so long nvr post. but who cares~
hahas. jus for myself. sian sian jiu blog.
BORIN~

passed evry subj. whoohoo~

nowadays VRY DE SLEEPY~ dont know why.
keep wanting to sleep.

congrats to yunhui n pohchin! Last Long! ^^

lols.
first thing i could say is *laughs*
these few days bad things just keep on flowing non-stop. VRY DE BAD ARX!!!
kidney starts to hurts again X.X
eaten vry little these few days also. lose a few KGs. force myself to excerise so that i wont feel hunger. but still vry tired. affected me~
these latey evry recess will be playin bball. but i didnt improve at all??
haix... why~ i jus wanna be a better player, and jus took tt path. tt path can only giv me the way to win. if i didnt took it, im always stuck in my old self. stuck. i hate it.
nobody will ever understands my feelings.. i cant tell it out to someone when i needed someone so much to talk to, someone i could trust for ever, someone who rlly understands me, someone who concerns...
i dun wanna stuck myself in a game which i could not do anything in that game. i wanna move on, better n stronger...

im sorry to.... yonglong bestie, wilbert, chichoy,xuanwei, and some other guys.
im seriously very sorry for injuring ue guys, makin ue all hurt physically. i know when im tryin to block ue guys in the air, while ue all were layup, i physically contact. sorry for being so violent in the game. i wish ue guys could understand...





i luv tis part~ especially the 1 on 1 prt.

im stuck between two sides.... i dont know how to move on... which side should i choose... my life jus ruined like tt.. if i went to the another side.. the another side will hate me. if i went to the another side, the side will hate me again... its jus neutral, dunnow which to go...

sunday sure is a borin day~~~

had bbq todae~

eat till dam full. watched movie also. "Armoured"

den do art uhs. study abit.

dinner.

do art again. den thought of something

yesterday~

went to sch to find yunhui they all after their camp.
luckily i spotted them fast, or else i will hav to wait till dunnow when.
den went to 450 slack for a while.
had 1 on 1 match wif benedit. hahs lose to him, thx to his stupid jokes uhs.
den continue to play non stop~~~
see yee n his friends came.
had matchs also. hahas
blahs blahs~

todae~'
jus knew tt bintan camp is so fun! =.=
stupid me... dun wan to go....
haiz haiz...
thx to pohchin uhs. temptin sayings. hahahs
play bball afterr tt againz~~~~
learnt a new layup againz~ hahas hang time quite alot.
gotta put full loaded weights liaoz~~~
hahas
den went to 450 for a while, had a match.
teamed.
played.
sianz.
went home.
got scolded.
bye.

smile smile smile~

Todae playe bball at 450. Got alot of ppl. Seeyee n his friends were there also. Had matchs. Hahas was invited to smoke quite alot of times, but I all rejected. Somehow, I felt vry sry. I was too focus in the game, didn't notice there is ppl watchin. Maybe nxt time I play , I shall look at the audience den shoot or layup. ;) tt shall helps. Nth much anyway, I jus not ling ago leaved a scar in my left eye. It stands for something but I dun rlly wan to say it out. Why's is things keep comin, when I dun even wan to do?? Sparring, smokin all these. I alr sick of it. I rlly wished tt my friends won't end up smokin n havin gangs...

Haiz.. These few days also not tt IN to bball luhs. Is not I dun wan to play bball anymore le. It's jus tt the feel is gone alr. But after I had stopped playin bball, friends start to change. I was wonderring is it tt it was my fault to bring e bball road in to them. Playing bball till late, and in the end got sick. I was totally worrried abt that. I rlly wished tt ue all won't walk that path.. Shld I come back for bball or shld I not? I dun know. Now only I could do, is to talk more. Tryin vry hard to entertain ue all. These few days is gettin better. Not much emo as be4. Sometimes I rlly dun know out there, is there anybody supporting me along, care.. Or hate me in some ways. If ue all dun speak out, puttin e matter inside ur heart n let it bygone be bygone. If it's like tis, I will nvr know wat ue all thinking. I know, ue all hidin something frm me. But, it may hurts others. In my mind, what is actually friends. I rlly dun know abt tt. There is too much ans for it. I'm tryin my best to smile evryday, resist my temper. I dun know why this feeling in my heart will start to come out. Evry time, I see bball, I will start to feel hatred in my heart. But the body feel like walkin toward n play. But if there is rlly a chance to play, I will play it. My bball soul is laid on e sch bball court. Not anymore in 450. I rlly wished tt I won't regret for wat I had done. Piano songs rlly calm me down. My bball standard will always be in tht standard. I will nvr be as great as the others. Haiz. Also nth much to say out luhs. I feel tt bball make me become morevulgar. Haha, for no reason jus scold. Gonna change. Tis is to someone. I will always luv ue, I didn't forgotten ue ever since. If it is, it still happens to comeback. I wanted to forget ue, but it jus get out of my heart.

i jus found out tt... im not tt important anymore. In my life, its rlly was nth. it come out nth, no matter how much i paid. i wont be playin bball anymore. todae, bball totally made me sad. todae was e last day. i at 450, even my friends r there, hahs. didnt even talk to me. sounds COOL huh. I EMO. pissed off, went to sch, n played 3on3. overall, my grp wins. me,osborn n roy. todae i nearly take a puff of a cigarette. even if i appear at there, but my presence is not there alr. cuz nobody felt my presence.

hey guys, tmr is sch reopens n todae is also e last day of holidays.

e sad thing is tt ever since 2010 came, my life became vry miserable...
i had lost my courage, my smiles start to disappear...
i wanted to smile so much...but e heart was broken...my heart cant take it, n my emotions start to follows...
emo-ing now...

Haiz.. These few days after the new yr eve, sure had happen alot of unhappy moments... Holidays did nth much also... Hv been playin bball at different locations. North cc, blk450 and bedok north court. If ue ask me, which court is the best. I think it will be 450. Cuz there has alot of different type of players. Playin long at there, I started to become a streetballer. I'm different frm the past. My friends ha taught me, e players there had taught me. Tricks and moves.. Of cuZ, I had also meet new friends at there. It took me so long... Haiz. I'm so jialat.. Haiz. Nvms lahs. Nxt time be more friendly can Liao lorx! Smile
more!!! Hahas. There's no need to act cool. Hahs. Great, I'm talkin to myself again liaoz. Hahas, thx to the non-responds ppl. Jkjk. Hahas. Stayin at home, sure makes me think alot of things, makin me heart ache, worry here worry there.. Haiz. Totally can't throw e idea away. Hahas. But luckily dilys is there for me, ue r my best Mei!!! Thx!!