sian!!

nthin to do....now playin FEAR 2 Project Origin...i got some screen shots!!

anyway tis a scary game...highly high gd calculation of ur reactions...

lonely....

got this durin games day..

today 5.30 woke up.den use com for a while den go to tampines stadium. reached there around 6.40, shirley,alan,aly already reached there liaoz cuz they have their duty...den soon axl,irene,dean,weiting reached... spent at there for 3 hrs..DAM BORED.....yl bansey me cuz he want to look for her...den almost all my friends have duty...axl they all i didnt stick wif them for vry long..only around 5mins...den walk around....tat is wat i call Mr Lonely...3/4 of my mood is lonely... but nvm larx...im used to it...evry excurssions or go outside...is like tis 1.... except for go out wif alan they all... cuz i know them for 2yrs liaoz marx...for 308...i think i still have to wait for 1 more yr.... or maybe there is no chance of it.....

nth much...

hihi

this is ur last chance,after this thing theres no turn,u take the blue pill,story ends,u wake at ur bed and believe nth.if u take the red pill,u stay in wonderland and i show u how deep the gravity hold us... -by MATRIX


today is vry bad bad day for me...in somehow my mind starts to think....my mask is startin to fate away... u can see it......once it starts..it will be hard for me to change back the way i am....or maybe there is no me....ly life is random, history is reapeatin,fear is repeatin,hatred is repeatin...jus like last yr...... or maybe i am not socialise, dunnow how to communicate wif others... in somehow i have tooken the wrong choice... i hope i wont have tis life anymore... i hope there is 1 time while i am doing parkour..i will die frm it...which is the best choice.... tmr will surely be a borin day for me.... my friends have duty...another patch i not sure.......................... there is sometimes i dun feel welcomed..i not sure...their expressions.. their behavoir....i cant trust any1.... as my days past..my life is gettin emo...but soon or later..it will be back to normal.....which it will take quite a long long time.... i have a vry strong urge to close tis blog... keepin the story in me... or in a song... but somehow i am used to being lonely... in primary sch..i do have friends..but always in excursions i am always sittin by myself... anyway i don not have any childhood if have it will still be a bad one... there is some things i can ignore but there is somethings i cant.... lets go straight to to gtg home...i did not take the bus wif u guys, there is three reasons for it...but i wont say it....
I CAN NVR CONTROL MY EMOTIONS,MY ANGER,MY MIND.....IT IS JUS LIKE LIVIN IN A ANOTHER BODY....

MY LIFE IS LIKE LIVIN IN A DARK DESSERT WIF A SMALL CIRCLE BONDARY AROUND ME...NVR ABLE TO STEP OUT OF IT...IF I STEP OUT OF IT...IT IS THE ANOTHER ME OF ME,WHICH IS THE NEGATIVE... i am not tryin to be a attention seeker...those attention seeker i understand their feelins... BUT FOR THOSE HAPPY GTG PPL WILL NVR UNDERSTAND OUR LIFES!!!!

nth

xiaopang!!!!!

yl draw 1--xiao pang

my cheese cake!!!

XIAO PANG!!!

muhahhaahas

hahas... today is a vry fun day...play guessing game...something like 20-40-40
?????today at night went for tution which is jus now.... after tution..i went to train my parkour...n my vaults is back!! yes man!! but the vaults r not imperfect... hahas..pratice makes perfect...

today i draw 1...hahas...not vry detail.. XIAOPANG SLEEPING!!! hahas..weights...my sis bought for me.. DAVILD BELLE!!!!BACKFLIP!!!

"3RUN is about pushing yourself to a higher level in every plane and having fun getting there. It is about discovering who you are and who you wil be."

i found tat almost parkourers r all 170+cm tall.... which is somehow my height..yeahs...haiz..today dunnow wat shld i do again...tagbox is dead...blog almost dead....msn dead.....i dead.....zzzzz........all my right hand strenght is all gone due to the stupid wound keep on eating the nutrients in the right hand..sian.. yesterday...i found tat actually my diagram all tens of mistakes..haiz...still not gd in physics enough but nvm larx...still got time to buck up.. now i am researching some parkours teams n some vid... 3run is 1 of my favourite! david belle is also 1 of my favourites! ROKS MAN!!

sianz........

Ahahas..ingnore tis pic.. it jus a pic of a person possessed into a world of fear n madness. these few days rlly nthing to do sia.....my wound is recovering vry fast.thx to the herbs. im back for my normal routine-mid-night exercise,training,study,day-dreaming abt parkour..hehes...i even done some physics diagram on parkour.MUHAHAHA!!! PHYSICS ROKS TO THE PARKOUR!!!! i even read on the advanced physics which have momentum,blahblah... almost everything is inside the parkour activity! the most sian time is when i cannot go out wif my friends!!! cry man!! not rlly cry larx... jus think of another of boredm.....

sian

boredom day jus past..but today is different.. i finally could go out...do some PKs den play basketball wif yl they all....

some random images n tutorial vid.

look quite nice right?taken frm my hse 11th floor. 1 of my artpiece......ahahas....some sort of scary?

see the difference??jus by 1 day it bleed so much.. drawn yesterday...nthing to do....

yo guys...

today is a bad day for me man.... got injured when parkour....part of a skin is being scripped off....u can even see the fresh...cool man...when i saw it,now den i know tat our skin is actually vry thick... my gonna scripped off,blood keep comin out non-stop...n i dunnow even y...i still can smile?! laugh dots.....usin tissue paper to stop the bleedin but it didnt work...anyway tis just happen a halfnhr ago...hahas....bleed quite a lot...estimate around a small cup of red wine?? now feel vry tired...dizzy...dunnow when will i faint or something..anyway the injury is on my right hand... my right hand now the muscle is like all flabby liaoz.....it sld be hard 1...now FLABBY!! zzzzz...but still got abit of strength....oya...anyway the scripped off skin is still attached..to my skin...actually i want to take a picture of it 1...but dun wan larx..cuz it is too digustin already...i jus learnt a small lesson of bio. :P

sian..

sian..holiday comin... Heard a lot of comments... those comments will make me impro ve more n more...no matter wat it is in front of me.... basketball not my type... music not my type.....npcc not my type also...but there is 1 thing,which is parkour.. the game of gamble life n physical,mental strength... In this yr, i might have a high possiblity i will stop sch... if i continued to score badly for my exams... which the decision is from my parents....

tryin to cherish the days wif u guys,spent the happy moments....but...there is always a guy blockin my whole decision...his character is way better den me...he dun feel shy,he is hyper,childish...no matter wat..i still lose to him.. he have the element of almost evry sports...

in my life, i only thought of just live on...wif no regerts,but there is no way i can achieve it.... no matter how hard i try... i still cant win him...i am those kind of ppl who always wear a mask.. tat no1 has ever look through it.. the mask of me...is a kind of playful,nvr serious,childish,nvr think be4 doin anything,not vry hyper....i put on tat mask is because of some1....in my life...i cant live on wif it....if i took off tat mask.... i will start to hate myself more den ever...nevertheless...in my class...i am counted the losiest of loseist... cant carry on wif my friends....

if i took of the mask, my whole character will turned 480degrees...my fear start to gone crazy...hatred start to overrun me... start to have weird thoughts....commit suicide,smoke,cuttin myself....but none of it, i have done it... only fightin..which is blacklisted durin sec2... always want to win the others,overrun others, so tat ppl can start to aknowledge me... but is still no use...CUZ OF MY STUPID FUCKIN BAD HABIT OF NOT LAUGHIN N SMILIN, EVEN FUNNY COMEDY SHOWS OR JOKES, I CANT EVEN LAUGH IT OUT!

now i am alone in the hse...waitin n waitin for my life to be gone 4ever n ever...waitin for the nxt life... tmr i will be wearin my mask again...play heart attack wif no laughs or fake laughs.... friendly wif low self-esteem... always wonder wat ppl will say abt me...those comments will make me improve or turned into hatred or ashes...

hiaz...

nlytis few days is a bad n gd days... the bad thing is i failed three subj. eng n chi-42e.maths-49 JUS 1 MORE MARK!!! zzzz.... now i have make up my mind... study hard for the nxt termn another term..till end of tis yr GET TOP4 IN CLASS!!! but sometimes also need to relax arx... oya... now im back to my parkour again... hahas..got some injuries..my back,ankle and my hand... some sort of pain?? den at class... still cant concentrate..sleep...play heartattack, can laugh until like wat... oya there is also photos!! im sohow noob in parkour,but im parctisin now... tryin to get better...nxt vid..shld have more stunts and i sld be able to climb up the nxt level...

drawn by iren,yl,axl n me!!

yoyo

yesterday, went for dental appointment den parkour around my hse for a while...doing basic....nthing to parkour in my hse....

here is some parkour videos frm sg!!