today we walk past each other class...
i walk past urs nvr takin a look at it...
u walk past mine nvr takin a look at it....
n l8r...
we walk past each other...
nvr takin a look at each other...
continue to walk....

these days dam freakin tired.....
monday is one stupid day...i dunnow why, i will think tt my tution starts on 4.30 nia....reach tution at 4.29 den its not open.WTF...
den l8r go find alan they all at north park..play play see see.play until 7+ den i went to tution(my tution starts at 5.30) opps.
hahas. tution was supposed to be 4hrs eng..sian...
go home study for 1 hr, lie at bed den slowly sleep le....

tuesday-
zzz...gonna fooled at class when my friends told me e wrong ans..
maths nia...
slept suddenly while doin grp work(chemistry)... dam tired sia...
den almost today lessons i hav been sittin alone...dam sian sia...
wan to listen to class also cannot lorx...no mood. my mind dunno flow to whr leh...maybe in monkey land bahs.lols.
den play play a outside class while waitin for teacher.
chase each other...ahahs my speed gone faster. thx to badminton training hahas...
after sch...sack slack eat eat..
den went back to sch for a while,check out e indoor court..zzz nobody playin...
go home sleep bath. den go tuton again.zzz
stupid sia..my phone...evrytime at tution class frm full batt to 2% batt.wth...make me cannot msg.
i wonder shld i today stay awake tonight n finished up e art or? shld i jus sleep?
ahahs

tmr i think im gonna bring two phone to sch le...zzz 1 phone for sms den another 1 for playing.

hahas

tmr got another tution again! AR!!! sian ar!

sian...i wonder wat is goin to happen tmr...so sian haiz...no1 to talk to...so quiet...

after the taste of lots of wasabi, it helps me alot... my life has turn back to normal. i became more happy.^^

n thx alot to someone for being there for me, when i need someone.^^

i will cherish it.

I WAN AGGRESSIVE ROLLERBLADES!!!! FOR MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT. THAT IS 1 OF MY BIGGEST WISHES....

IF SOMEONE COULD GIVE THIS PRESENT, I WILL REMEMBER YOU FOR LIFE, AND PUT UR NAME ON THE AGGRESSIVE ROLLERBLADE.

finally...i back to myself... my mask hav recovered...glad...
tis song for evry1 readin my blog. tis song means something to me...



my favourite-machi wo ai zhou xin xin.
feel like use all e lyrics n use on some1 hahas

i think its finally my time to show wat i got... its show time.

evrytime my friends told me to take the 1st step. yes,i listen to them. but wat happens nxt? the lessons jus keep on repeatin.. there is one thing i dun get it at all... u gave the chances to someone but u nvr gave the chances to anyone anymore... Problems jus keep on coming n coming non-stop....my friends they suffer,see their emotions, i will think back wat happens at tt time...
i dun wan to see those memories anymore...u jus piss me off. i dun care whether is ur friend who did it for u. yesterday, the juniors are dam fuckin lucky, tt i nvr get pissed off... once if e training there is no more sirs or mdm...u guys will rlly take it frm me. i dun care whther junyi has scolded u alr,u giv me attitude. i will giv u my attitude.

im gtg to find myself back..im totally lost myself...i can nvr control my emotions anymore...its funny i laugh,not funny i dun laugh. yesterday was a truly a bad day for me. i wan to punch my face again, destroyin e smiles n laughs on my face..
I DUN WAN TO LIKE ANY1 ANYMORE!
I WAN TO MY HEART TO FEEL NO MORE FEELINGS!
I WAN TIS WORD"LOVE" TO VANISH IN MY HEART N MIND!

AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NEVER BACK DOWN!

ssss...... why sia why.... now evrytime i sleep, i will see you....i hate tt feeling....
Patience is the key to it right? wat shld i do..... to clear this memory of it.....
badminton only clear it for a short while,breakdance dun even help at all lorx....maybe i shld try back my old style-MMA
but seriously fighting is not a vry fun thing to do... MMA is prt of me n i dun wan to show it..u may not like it...when it comes to sparring.




after seein tis video...haiz...rlly dun feel like fighting anymore... only fight fight fight....
in e end,it gain nth..jus gainin more fights to u..tts all..


at here, im gtg to apologize to u for wat i'v done. sry.

haiz...dunnow wat the hell is happening today sia...gd things n bad things come 1 after n e another...Ssss...
i dun my mask will last long...i feel tt its slowly breakin bits by bits...

today nth much also.
jus did wat i shld do. i took e 1st step.
n also heard a lot of craps frm 306 alr.... Ssss....
i think those words are jus tryin to pull me down. NEVER BACK DOWN!

i will continue to love you, no matter what it takes. jealousy comes to me, i will jus hav to bear it.

now im rlly dunno how i feelin right now....
now im feelin totally regretted abt who i trusted n wat i hav done...
yes.my emotions is there,but do u know tt my heart is inside cryin out?
i dun even dare to show my emotions at all...
now i rlly feel like my breakin my wrist...im hav tried evrything....breakdance,badminton,shuffle but all these didnt clear e heart pain... its gone in tt moment but after it....its back...

im dun feel like talkin to any1 right now...even my smiles seems to be real...but in e deepest of my heart, there is a cut in it...

today nth much...at class didnt sleep at all, keep watching e GATSU game hahas
luagh till cannot laugh hahas

den went to find anthony, go inside his class talk talk.hahas had a gd time talkin.

tmr im gtg to take a strongest n most courageous step.





there is sometimes.... i think i am always too late to make it... i jus gotta e feelin
but e feelin is not a gd 1...is quite a bad 1...
today i was so happy to see u smile tt way,its been a long time since i saw tt...



am i gtg to wait again?? i think tt is a NO. tmr i will take action! E+R=O
tts e way im got to do it.

i think today i will be spraining my right wraist....do a lot of times of freeze..
learning freeze,top rock n power moves(maybe)

friday was a dam bad luck day but also a fun day for me.

fri decidin not to go for training,but too bad gonna caught.sian.... den hav to pei TOC walk evrywhr dunnow for wat...

den after tt join back e activities. hahas..dam funny e RT games. ESPECIALLY all e ppl come,dam cool!

there is also solo PK wif me n yanhan. hahas I WON! hahas

after np,debrief...im e 1st 1 to zao.hahas den pei yunhui,dilys,simin n priss. they keep talkin n talkin. for me,silent mode as usual.hahas

*i dun talk much is becuz i dunnow wat shld i talk abt,if got i will talk. ^^*

den went to bbt.talk all craps. yunhui n dilys playin around. while i jus sit wif yl,say nth. HAHAS im so guai.hahas

oya. i even receieved a present frm my friend,Mary. which is a knitcap. dunnow how much she brought it for me.. hahas but thx.

haiz...today is sure a borin day....borin.... nth to do lorx. use com,use until sian....

oya! at here, i wan to thx yunhui for lending me her calculator. luckily she lend me,if not i will fail my test man... N also, dilys. im sry for injuring ur elbow. i didnt know tt u were behind e door. so i ram into e door, thought u 2 went away le. SRY!.

i think tts all for yesterday n today. gd byes. LUVES U. ^^

it was tuesday 12.40 pm tt i told u i like u. but it just come out frm my mouth n e courage i gain. actually wat i rlly wan to say to u is i luv u.
im not askin u for stead tis time of moment,cuz of e final yr exams.i dun wan to crop up bth of our studies.


these few days,i rlly rlly vry slack...study vry few.
E circles maths! i cant even figured out lor! n this thur is test on tt?! wth?

hahas.thx to linux.my internet gone faster,com also.now i can go sch n use linux n play game! yea. hahas

i hope u will be lookin at this pic.^
wat i really wan to say is tt i love u alot.

hahas.. jus finish my own personal badminton training.
-skipping rope(fast)
-skipping rope with 5kg weights(normal n fast pace)
-push up 20
-train accuracy
-weights 5kg per hand.
-hand balance

jus forgotten 1 thing-cranches n sit ups! sian....

jus watch e lin dan tis yr yonex competition. he e best man.



hooyea! he is a bth handed!!! hahas.
passion for badminton.
hope to take e regular place. hope there is a ranking match also....

hahas...
today is quite a fine day....nth much happen. study study study...
finally elmost finished my emaths hw...jus 5 more questions.. yes

hahas...today morning recovered frm my mood yesterday.:)
jus notice something n figured out something. n wat to be n wat not to be.
today morning, i was keep thinkin abt something... y mus i be angry wif her? jealousy maybe?
but soon...i realise tt i was actually carin for her these whole time... not a hint of luv at all.
its jus carin. tts wat friends n besties r for. right?
:)

sry abt all e scoldings or upset words i hav said to u.

:) but i still hav some1 in my heart:) she is e only 1st 1 to hav 600msgs wif me. i rlly appreciate tt n cherish abt it. :) though i may not look at u anymore, but if e heart is there. ppl will naturally feel it.
i jus hav to say tt i still luv u. :)

fall down,stand back up. never back down-
beauty give crushes,personality give a soothing feeling to ur heart, but when bth r together it give crushes and a soothin feelin to e person.
but to some ppl, they luv e personality of a person,nvr carin abt e beauty.
some ppl,luv e beauty but not personality-
there will never have a perfect person in this world.life is tt unfair. its jus tt u hav to make e correct choice who u wan to be wif, wat type of friends u make, e path u will walkin wif e person, or alone.-
nobody can force e rights of e another person.-
its e choice of u and e person...

i feel like im a big stupid fool..... havin faith in evrything.....

my heart has died n im not gtg to have another crush....

a cap on my head,sittin there coverin my eyes in e shade of e cap.... cryin lonely in e heart...nvr wan to find another 1 again...

im jus a stupid fool.... if can,im gtg to wear my cap n play badminton wif it, leavin e memories behind.

i think now my feelins is all said in tis song....

Big BANG- Haru Haru


i was wrong abt u,myself.... lost all my faith...

u fall,u jus hav 2 get up

erm.....nth much to say bahs....jus tt 40 mins need to go liaos..... for e class performance-dunnow go there for wat. but also can slack slack. hahahs

yesterday,played audition...so long nvr play liaoz....few so panic after seeing e keys. evrytime miss is e last key or no reason for miss. 2pid.
hahas.i even thought i was playin wif my friends for 4 songs. den in e end den know is not my friend.2pid...
den l8r rlly play wif my friend hahas.... haiz....
no badminton till end of exams....sian....but study comes 1st....

nowadays,my life is gettin borin n lonely.... not sure y... go home also 1 person,go sch 1 person,stay back after sch also 1 person. but i think i have alr used to it...e borin life i had.
think of it of tmr.... haiz.... tmr is my job! but i fail bth tests! so cant go for my job...sian no money...

shuffle,running man,music!
hahas...yesterday was 1 gd story of e night in bus21...
yesterday blur blur take bus 21 to pasir ris
take e wrong way! sian take off take bus 21 back to my hse... blastin my music n my ears of shuffle music..cool. hahas.. den its like all e ppl in my bus heard my music hahas.. shld be bahs...hahas

now....i seriously dun understand wat u r thinking.....its only U. i dun rlly get it.... my IQ is high,but i cant get e reason behind all tis.npcc im not gtg, u go. now its like evry friday u will go there. its like wat the hell is gtg on... now i didnt care u any more,didnt even wan 2 look at u... maybe SOME1 will appreciate me for tis. cuz these days is his best chance to take it.. i dun get it.... i hav changed my character so many times. almost mixed up my emotions. i hav went through hatred,kind,happy,sad n loneliness. i dunnow wats e point man..

kk gtg off....to eat breakfast.....


LONELY GUY SITTIN ALL BY HIMSELF


wat a stupid day today lousy day...

AKAYA-

tis month hav happen alot of unhappy things....r/s,results n all stuffs...
i dun rlly know wat tis world is happening n to me...
my heart jus feels like it has dead, cant feel any emotions,luv... a heartless person...
nvr know when will my heart reborn again...
i was able to join in e nxt yr competition B-division. quite a gd thing for me.
but the heart of mine still cant be cured.
wats so nice abt drills?! i jus dun get it.... now i dun even know wats my reason for not lookin at u anymore...not a single glance... maybe theres wat rlly i do...
im jus cant hav e feel, but the likin is still there...
hard to explain...

e reason y now i rarely talk is becuz there is too much things for me to think alr...
wat shld i do....heartless....

now learnin n doin shuffle...