bad day again.,...

i thik the way 2 solve it is 2 4get everything, sensitive 2 the name.. doing everything 2 4get it.. no more feelings.. if u guys wan 2 know y i became like tis.. come 2 me in person.. today tution finish, go bk pri sch.. play basketball, thye net is so dam low lar.. while playing..my mind was completely nthing theres no thinking abt her.. or anything.. tis is just like the another me... and i like my other side.. the gd side... if i do see her again.. just act normally.. never having any feelings anymore... not anymore.... if i do.. the same own thing will happen again.. never change...

bad day..

today is my bad day.. or my last day of my blacklist, new blacklist still not updated, hatred still continue 2 run over my body, my mind and my thoughts of everything.. today yinning told yonglong, alan, shirley and reena something.. and i dun ven know a thing.. tis is my new hatred.. so tis game have 2 play on.. the game of hiding truth from me.. being lied by friends, nxt hatred.. yesterday, i fought wif hiuhang again.. i have became strong again.. hiuhang is so weak, i wan 2 tell him is tat SRY.. NOW U R NO LONGER in my list.. the truth.. my friends know, i am the odd 1 out.. increased my hatred, making me want 2 learn more fighting skills, self-defence, or even...
everythime i told them who i like.. in the end the same own thing keep gtg on and gtg on.. just like rolling days... EVERYDAY IT MAKE ME THINKS TAT I DUN BELONG 2 TIS WORLD.. I SHOULD HAVE DIED SINCE THEN... people throwing knives on my bk non-stop, and i keep 4giving and 4giving..but not anymore, till 1 day... 2 my readers.. tis is only half of my true colours.. those kindness,happiness and laughing is all fake... its just like the another me...

HATRED IS THE STRONGEST OF THE STRONGEST

NOT LOVE, KINDNESS, FRIENDSHIP

IS UR PAST OF THE HATRED

TIS IS THE ONLY THING TAT MAKE U STRONG

STRONGER THAN EVER

MAKE THEM KNOW TAT WAT U R MAKE FROM!

I ONLY REMEMBER HATRED OF MY PAST AND THE BAD MEMORIES

WHICH NOTIVATED ME INTO VIOLENCE

I CANT BE MY GD SOUL INSIDE ME

ANYMORE... CUZ OF MY PAST

JUST LIKE A DEVIL CONTROLLING ME

TAT I CAN NVER RUN AWAY FROM

WRKING WIF IT

COOPERATING WIF IT......

today..

my day is a bad day.... emo for a while then hyper for vry long time..

today..

today 6.30 reach sch cuz got npcc.. quite fun in acting, killing for 16 times..kill until i dun wan 2 kill liao. then today go watch HELLBOY THE GOLDEN ARMY. it is vry nice!! i luv the golden army the best..

nthing much..

today got npcc training..quite tired.. get bk rank, then evry1 meet up.. archery on thursday, i got 3 bulleye!! they encouraged me 2 join their team sia.. make me feel like joining sia... cuz i make myself tat i am shooting tis 4 some1... monday got nppc act, i act as a murderer, my favorite. today consider my best day man...

tmr.....

tmr is a full moon coming out.. giving me a warning or a signal 4 me.. tmr have archery course and fri have cca.. sat got go out and sunday got go out 2... quite busy... my face starting 2 bring a unhappy face.. cuz of my past..hatred..

nthing...

i do research on judo throws and lockings and found out tat i could do one arm shoulder throw. tats a gd thing 4 me.. my sch got judo cca but i not joining, train myself.. tmr is the sci due date, wat 2 do?! nthing lor wait 4 some1 to rescue haha..lame. today 2 teachers never come- eng and maths but sad lor..only 2 period of freedom..

sian..

tmr is e-learing day, dun need 2 go sch but no going out!!;( today i think the whole 104 know wat the coversation is all about..i dunno how they found out.. but today i have a very strong 2 fight.. thinking about judo, boxing, close combat, combo hits... sian...tmr the whole MSN will be full... today some1 say something i hate to hear, some guys r getting annoying.., starting to lose my feelings again...

today is...

to day is the biG Day!! Games DaY!! yeh!! hanging around, not cheering 4 our grp.. searching for friends.. but today is my most wonderful day. after games day, me and my friends go TM and got seperated from some1..haiz sian... now playing dota, otherpp play maple.. haiz.. anyway HELLBOY 2 movie is coming out!! yes!!! nxt post will be games day pics!!

games day1!!

tmr is games day at tampines stadium.. i amm the only who have no duty, all my friends got duty?!! i am so lonely..Mrlonely..lol!! now wat should ido?? if i quit npcc, wat cca will i join?? Judo?? tis is the only i am most interested in.. now at home study... non-stop.. no lah!! u think i crazy meh! a lot of things to do sia... i hope my school got boxing club sia.. or do wif self-defence club...

npcc straight down...

the last training, squad only have 16 left 2, thio punishment HELL!! punishment till 2 pp come, cannot come also must come. WTH!! then 4get 1 set of drills, rank strip off wif 2 badges. tis cause a lot of pp wanting to quit npcc. cause of the threatening and hell punishment.. 95% of the squad deciding to quit the squad..one for all,all for one..